well said johnny boy . . .

I hate to see you cry,

Lying there in that position.

There's things you need to hear

So turn off your tears and listen.

Pain throws your heart to the ground.

Love turns the whole thing around.

No, it won't all go the way it should,

But I know the heart of life is good.

You know it's nothing new,

Bad news never had good timing.

Then the circle of your friends

Will defend the silver lining.

Pain throws your heart to the ground.

Love turns the whole thing around.

No, it won't all go the way it should,

But I know the heart of life is good.

Pain throws your heart to the ground.

Love turns the whole thing around.

Fear is a friend who's misunderstood,

But I know the heart of life is good.

I know it's good...

 

Life is hard. Like, seriously hard.  Why doesn't anyone ever tell you that?! It seems like the older I get, the more intense the problems and the pain get. The things that mattered so much yesterday, are silly compared to the things that are in the here and the right now.  Just when everything is going just the way you plan, life has this way of making you believe that nothing will change, it will all be perfect. But then life also has this way of smacking you upside the head and giving you a cruel reality check.  Life isn't perfect, and things will pretty much never go the way you want or expect.
See, I have this patience problem.  I want all these things, and I want them now.  But the thing is, they are the simple things, or so it would seem.  I want a comfortable house in a nice neighborhood, I want that house to be filled with little babies, I want to have a job doing something I love and that allows me to be creative, and I want life to be good all the time.  And it sounds selfish really, because I have a pretty wonderful life. It's just that lately, I have been so consumed by the things that I want, by the could-have been's and the should-be's that I sometimes forget to look around at the blessing that is my life...

I have this amazing husband who loves me despite my emotional outbursts and my crazy ideas and tendencies.

I have, let's just be honest here, the absolute cutest puppy ever created. Dogs have this thing, this unconditional love that humans cannot, or maybe just will not, possess. It's inspiring.  

 I have these extremely giving parents who have given up their freedom and sacrifice a lot to let us live with them while we prepare for our future.

I have friends who are family, and family who are friends. And really, how much better does it get?

Life is hard. It really sucks sometimes. And it hurts more than you could ever imagine.  But it's good too. Really, amazingly, earth-shakingly good.  Life may have some horrible, deal-breaking qualities, but there's a natural balance to it.  What comes around, goes around and just like good things can go bad, bad things will most certainly turn into good.  So, here I am, waiting for the good, because this good? Well, it's going to be great.  All that pain and hurt that seemed insurmountable, it will have just stretched my heart to hold more love and passion for life and the things that will come.